As a music teacher, I am constantly exploring new songs and artists to share with my students. One day, I stumbled upon a song called “Gans Media Retro Games” by Hot Mulligan, and I was immediately captivated by its raw emotion and introspective lyrics. It spoke to me on a personal level, as it delved into the internal struggles and self-doubt that many of us often grapple with.

The chorus of the song raises the question, “Am I the problem?” It touches upon the feeling of not fitting in or not being able to keep up with the pace of conversation. It’s a sentiment that many of us can relate to, as we often question our own self-worth and wonder if we are the ones causing the issues in our lives.

The first verse addresses the loss of self-control and the consequences that come with it. The lyrics suggest that the protagonist cannot hold back their thoughts when under the influence of alcohol, and they begin to question if this lack of inhibition is a problem unique to them or if it is a shared experience. The repetition of being “numb, useless, vestigial, and senseless” paints a picture of someone who feels disconnected and unsure of their place in the world.

In the second verse, the song continues to explore the internal struggles of the protagonist. They describe themselves as being filled with fear of their own actions, waking up each day feeling numb and worthless. The inner turmoil is palpable as the lyrics express a sense of hopelessness and a desire to find peace, even if it means taking drastic measures.

The bridge of the song encourages the listener to stay down, almost as if accepting the pain and memories that come with going out into the world. It portrays a sense of resignation, suggesting that the protagonist believes they are destined to live in this state of uncertainty and self-doubt.

The lyrics of “Gans Media Retro Games” are accompanied by a unique musical arrangement. Vocalist Tades Sanville describes the song as having a “cool little balancing act between distortion and that kinda ghost-y lead.” This combination of sounds creates a haunting atmosphere that further emphasizes the introspective and introspective nature of the lyrics.

The title of the song, “Gans Media Retro Games,” is derived from a retro video games store in Hopatcong, NJ. Hot Mulligan recorded their album ‘Why Would I Watch?’ across the street from the store, and their frequent visits became a source of inspiration. The song title serves as a nod to the store and the memories associated with it.

“Gans Media Retro Games” is a poignant song that explores the depths of human introspection and the universal struggle of self-doubt. Its relatable lyrics and unique musical arrangement make it a standout track that deserves recognition. Whether you’re a fan of rock, emo, pop-punk, or math rock, this song is sure to resonate with you.

Credits:

• Produced By: Brett Romnes
• Written By: Hot Mulligan
• Label: Wax Bodega
• Backing Vocals: Chris Freeman
• Percussion: Brandon Blakeley
• Lead guitar: Ryan Malicsi
• Rhythm Guitar: Chris Freeman
• Lead Vocals: Nathan Sanville
• Release Date: April 12, 2023

Tags: Rock, Midwest Emo, Emo, Pop-Punk, Math Rock